Within weeks this game was a life indeed. A busy life, a thrilling life, and very different from my - somehow suddenly boring - first life. Meeting people from all over the world, travelling, dancing, partying, flirting, falling in love. Wow!
There have been weeks that I spent more time in SL than at FL-work. My second life became a first life addiction. Whenever it was possible (or to be honest - even when it was almost impossible) I *had* to log in. SecondLife is like a drug: the more you have, the more you want. When you have spent a long evening (ahem... night) in-world, it's even more difficult not to log in early next day.
Was I happy with my two lifes? No, not really. And my family even less. I don't know where I would have ended without them.
Gradually I managed to cut down my in-world time. You will rarely see me online during daytime nowadays. And I go to bed on a reasonable time again.
My first and second life are more balanced now. My human and avatar aren't fighting for attention anymore.
But human and avatar are not alone. Someone is watching them. She's observing what is happening. She's trying to explain, why it is happening. She's reading how other people are experiencing the same issues. And she's writing down what she's thinking. It's yours truly, the blogger.
The blogosphere is addictive like SecondLife: again the thrill of being part of it and not wanting to miss anything. Blogging has become my third life. However, there's a big difference between my second and third life. When first life is calling, it's easy to stop writing or reading, unlike stopping to chat when you are in-world.
Nevertheless, blogging is eating time. From my first life, when I can afford it, but also from my second life. But it's worth it.
Since I started with SecondLife I've spent much time pondering about it. SL gives lots of food for thought, and besides that, it's in my nature: I can loose my self in my thoughts. One way to sort my thoughts is writing them down. Writing about my second life, gives me peace of mind.
When I start writing a new post, there's chaos in my head, that needs to be organised. During the proces of reading back, weighing words and replacing lines, it slowly becomes clearer what I actually want to say. It may be obvious that I'm not a quick writer ;-)
It's like a piece of rock that needs to be polished to see the gem inside. I keep polishing my text until my point of view crystallizes , and that is when the stream of thoughts and words in my mind finally stops.
But it's only a temporarily peace of mind. Reading your comments, other blogs and incidents or conversations in-world can make me change my mind and the proces starts all over.
That's not bad. On the contrary, I actually like that proces. It helps me concentrating on one thing, instead of thinking about all the different facets of SL, jumping from one to another.
There has been more rest in my head, since I have a third life.
6 comments:
So there's three of you hey ? I knew it !!
I always experienced you were too much for me ,not knowing that it were in fact three women i had to deal with. pfew, you could have told me that a little earlier zippora !!!
Warum erahnte ich nur dieses posting...?
LOL you don't know who I'm still hiding, Leroy ;-)
@Jona: because I've told you about it? And yes, without our conversation it would probably have had a paragraph less ;-)
Oh you told me something about it before? Sorry I missed that...
hmhhh a paragraph less...hey please tell me which one...And if you want you can contact me in world. Just read in my eyes why!
I can understand your way of thinking, but that third life eats time!! And time is just the thing that I need the most, and don't have.;)
You know, I never noticed about this until you said it? You are soo right!
*Hugs Zippora the blogger, hopping to hug Zippora someday too :-)*
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